I am really behind on this blog thing. School has been taking up most of my time since I started this semester. I do not even get that much work yet but being at school has taken up most of my time. It was really crappy that we had to start school after a holiday. I had to make up work the first day of the semester! How freaking dumb. Well I do not know what to write about anymore I am just trying not to use contractions so I could have more words; how lame am I?
I told my brother Jorge that I had to write a blog for my class. He thought it was a good idea so people can see how I am actually like. Jorge told me that people might not judge me so harshly if they read my blog and realized I was an ordinary person. We have always been that family of weirdoes people stare at without noticing. I guess my brother does not like when people are judged based on their looks, but then again I do not think anyone does unless you are some self centered douche. Everyone prefers to be looked at differently so whatever. I do not think my blog would make any difference on how people judge me. I do not think people would even be interested in my blog to begin with because they have already judged me. That is so funny. Well I do not care who reads this, I hope no one does. Like one of my favorite songs says, I hate people and they hate me! That is not true though I do not hate people. I hate what they do and what they love. I love people but people are jerks. Well that goes for most of the people I have met so far. I guess I still have a lot of people to meet in my life.
I have not had time to sew recently. I start to sew then I realize I have something more important to do. I need money! I must sew! School comes fist right? Not if I am starving. Well I am not so it is alright. Ah I have been wondering if I have chosen the right career path. I have wanted to do the same thing since I was three years old. That is the exact reason I am not sure about it anymore. Maybe I just like that idea because I have been thinking about it for so damn long. I have always wanted to be a teacher. Think I am just pushing myself towards something steady. I want to get through school as soon as possible. I want to get though it so my son can have what he needs as he gets older.
Recently I have just been saying one thing, I just want to sew! I want to minor in fashion but I do not think I have time for that. I just want to be done with school and get some well paying job that I will not like. I will like it. I just will not like all the rules that come with it. I do not think I will be good at anything any time soon. I love to come up with new ideas for clothes and sew things but I do not think I could do the whole fashion thing. Fashionable people look at me and laugh but I do not blame them. I am not into that crap. Why the hell would I want to wear what everyone else is wearing? Oh let me just be a fucking zombie, let everyone else decide for me, I do not care what is chosen for me. How about no! I do not like to have the same clothes that other people have; it is just weird. It is pretty embarrassing. Sometimes I feel embarrassed for some people. I see girls every once in a while that do not know each other and are wearing the exact same thing and I could tell that they are embarrassed. The exact same thing! That is terrible; I hope that does not happen to me anytime soon. I have had enough of that. I wear these two pairs of boots all the time that my friend also has. I kind of sucks when we are both wearing the bright pink ones because they are so bright. Everyone comments about the boots when that happens. I do not even notice anymore, but everyone else does. I’m a weirdo.
